the pain
i try not to think of it. because if i do, it swallows me; the hole of darkness covers me, the sound of silence surrounds me. It fits in every corner of my eyes reach. No one listens. No one cares, and if they do ..
it doesn't even matter
the pain will go away eventually, it always does. but like a boomerang it always comes back. i have a never ending source of pain. It swallows me. this gut wrenching, soul shattering silence surrounds me. the more i try to fight the more it wins.
i give in
i give up
yet it doesn't feel satisfied. this hole of darkness this hole of unbearable pain is never full, its always empty. It never seems grateful for what I've sacrificed for its selfish greed. It just begs for me to give up myself.
I can't
I would rather be surrounded by silence,and covered with darkness before i truly give in. With every effort it takes of my soul, i can never truly
give in
or
give up
I have to fight,
what will happen if I give up?
surely death.