I've never been this lonely.Now : moot point I'm not that old but this it feels like it's always been there ,it;s just been ,asked by other things. Now that things are gone it seems to just hover it seems to just seems to stand there sucking my soul . I miss all of them. I miss not being able to go back and fix everything that went wrong. Makes me want a drink real bad. Just something to ease up the pain but it seems like nothing can I just can't seem to climb this wall I mean I have friends I have a best friend and others Don't get me wrong I'm not a loner....ok well sometimes I am, I miss not having fun anymore. I miss just being myself, being able to let go of the load that stays on my chest, I miss having someone tease me and make me feel wanted. I hate always feeling like I have to cry all the time.  I hate in order for my self to be happy having to think of past memories they feel so old now...like I made them up. I hate having people tell me how I feel,whom I love . I'm just sick of trying to rise to what they want. I just want to be loved and happy is that so wrong?

I'm tired of feeling like this I just want all these feelings to go away and to stay away only coming when I need their warmth and security. I CAN'T HELP HOW I FEEL . I ONLY LOVED YOU BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME.... And for that I am truly sorry

'REGISTER'