If I showed you how I felt would you care? I feel so lost at times so lonely. I feel so angry. No furious. I want to be loved, to be held, to be cared for. not ridiculed not made fun of for being different. For once I want people to like me for me , not for what i wear, or how i talk,or what i said, or what I did. I want to be accepted but first you have to accept that I'm not going to change. I'm going to be me no matter where and no matter what. If you don't like that then you don't have to talk to me. You don't have to like it for all i care you can hate it ,but you have to respect it. I respect you don't i? I care enough to let you do what you need to do. Don't I? I just want to be loved to be felt for, to be cared, I yearn for some type of love that isn't family related or friend related I want you to care because you care for me... No One seems to understand that. You don't try and get why I feel that way. I don't feel safe in my own skin... I cant be. I try OH GOD KNOWS HOW I TRY!!! But it never works out,when I bust out my shell you push me back in. I feel like a turtle slowly edging my way out only to be scared by some unseen force and being pushed back in wheter it be by you or by me. It happens. I don't blame you.I can be a handful I can be a tough pill to sallow. But that's ME. I cant change that , I don't want to.
The only thing I want is to be loved.
