If we could do things over.
 Would we change anything?
Would you still walk me home?
Would you hold my hand?
Would you give me your hoodie while we walk in the rain?
Would we kiss on the log with the sunset behind us?
Would we forgive ourselves for being so stupid,so lost in lust in the denial of future and the fear of becoming what we didn't want to do?
Could we survive what if we had done the unthinkable?
Could we recover from it? Could we love? Would it be strong? Would we feel safe?
Or would we be trapped forever in a seam of long lost lust and love?

Can we do things over?

Could we start at the beginning?

Could we make each other happy?

I've never danced on the edge.
I've jumped from it.
I've never heard the sound of a ghost.
I became one.
I might be beyond what you think .
I'm just me.

I haven't lost my mind

You destroyed it.

With love.

therapy

Does life ever work out the way that I plan. Will it ever? Will the release of steady flow of pain ever lift off? Will the days become light. It seems as though I can never win. Blasting music is my only friend,my friend, my forever and ever soul mate. I can't seem to relate to anything. It seems that when I want to open up... I just get shut right off. I wanna cry but I gotta be strong. The blood never seems to flow,it never seems to end either. It's my only release, my only form of hope. I can't get enough of .....this horrible ''hunger of hatred''. I have to stay strong, I can't cry, I can't fail,I can't be weak.

But I am anyway and

 the tears well they do too.

This passion is crazy. 

It's like a fire that just won't go out. A light that should have burned out.

Your the water that I so badly need. Your the answer to quenching my thirst.

Yet you find fun in dehydrating me,in making me dry and cold. making me shrivel like a grape. 

Your destroying me ...we both know it,yet we both need it.

This passion it's mind blowing,sense tingling,heart stopping,relax driven,bulletproof,

It's Real.

You just haven't noticed it yet.

I..think...Forever?

 You: If I asked would you stay?
 Me: why did you do this to me? 
 Me: Why did you tarnish my dreams?
You: How the hell did you ever pick me,
Me:Honestly, I could sing you a song,
But I don't think words can express our beauty,
I fell in love from the moment we kissed,
Since then we've been history

 I can't forget you.  I know that now.Your going to be the mistake I'll tell me kids about , the lesson I learned....and the love that I was always love to regret.

They say that love is forever,

Your forever is all that I need,

Please stay forever with me,

please. please. please. please.

 stop lying.