It seems that every time I try to find something that makes me happy something that i think i can call my own it gets taken away told its dangerous told im nothing always am nothing never will be anything . I'm told that things that are bad that happen to me are good that I have no right to anything good. it seems like to no avail is there hope. There is no hope for me,no not because im bad but because I'm by myself.. does that make me a bad person for not wanting to be alone. It's not like i want to be but thats the way it is because being alone is just a way of me not getting hurt....but alas it doesn't work.. I really dont see my purpose in this world if i all have is music and loneliness and you blog. I feel so alone it's horrible it's thousand's of rocks crushing me every time i try to fight free. It's the tide coming back to pull me under. JOY.
Sunday
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