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listening to songs and talking to friends with so many new things I should be happy right? I'm not not that I'm selfish or stuck up or anything I'm happy i have these things but im so lonely. It's like the whole in my chest seems to grow bigger every day no matter how much love and happiness it just seems to get bigger..and one day I'm not going to have the energy to fight it. I'm just going to let it overpower me and attack me. To swoop me like the ocean does the sand ,how a tiger does it's prey. I'm going to embrace it.

  That day is soon.

very.