The HIGHS and lows

I can't seem to wrap my head around things or for that matter get things out my head. I don't seem to be able to get him out my head my heart my mind my thoughts my dreams nothing. Everywhere I go he seems to follow me EVERYWHERE I'm not sure if this is love or obsession. I'm not sure what i feel at the moment I'm so confused , i want him around and then I don't I yearn for his touch and then I cringe at it, i love his voice and then hate the tone. I'm so confused that I can't seem to wrap my head around it. I love him and then I hate him.