If everyday was your last, how would you live it?
Me?
I would stuff fate and believing that life could have been better. Missing the what haves and what could have been's. I could spend time thinking about fate, how it screwed me over. Yelling at karma for never doing good all the things i did,and having them amount to nothing but suffering.
Why would I want to put my self in suffering and trying to survive again?
Shouldn't I be happy that life isn't hard anymore? That I wont have to fight to do simple things?
That I wont have to hide how I feel about my self? What about the fact that I could accept that finally your a border to overcome?
So yesterday was my last day of living.... living for you and all these things that have amounted and I (ashamedly) let happen because of you.
Me?
I would stuff fate and believing that life could have been better. Missing the what haves and what could have been's. I could spend time thinking about fate, how it screwed me over. Yelling at karma for never doing good all the things i did,and having them amount to nothing but suffering.
But then...
I would be happy, why would I want to live like this in the beginning?Why would I want to put my self in suffering and trying to survive again?
Shouldn't I be happy that life isn't hard anymore? That I wont have to fight to do simple things?
That I wont have to hide how I feel about my self? What about the fact that I could accept that finally your a border to overcome?
So yesterday was my last day of living.... living for you and all these things that have amounted and I (ashamedly) let happen because of you.
Today is a new day.
A new life.
A fresh start.
A day with out you in my memory.
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